From a neat married mother to a horny slut

16 Feb 2023

From a neat married mother to a horny slut

I was married and have since divorced and married again so my first marriage was to my 2 sons after a disaster.
After our daughter was born still I was on my own, my ex continued on autopilot and didn't look back at me.
That was a big red flag in hindsight, but hey, you're young and moving on.
2 sons came, there was a man and I, as a woman, sat between 3 men.
I didn't know what I was missing until one day a nice man crossed my path.
He was hired externally and from the first moment I felt, and he said later, that something was happening between us.

Long story short, I could talk to him about anything, and yes, we had great sex.
After about 7 months of being secretive, he broke off the relationship because I didn't follow through, he thought. And afterwards I have to agree with him, I only came up with an excuse not to have to divorce instead of choosing him.
I was devastated because I was really bad with him and pulled a shitty trick that made him lose his appointment and now has a criminal record. Because I wanted revenge AND to keep my life. Saving my marriage was already too late.

After a few months my ex-husband indicated that he wanted a divorce because I had cheated for 7 months… how he knew that, I was talking in my sleep and he now knew that I was a horny slut with someone else but not with him anymore.
Am I sorry, yes and no. No, I don't regret cheating, I do regret that I treated my ex lover so badly.

Sometimes I think I'll apologize because I know where he lives, I still have his 06 number…but I'm afraid if I hear his voice or look into his eyes I'll go for the ax again.
In the meantime I have remarried to a nice man, but you can already feel it coming, it's so normal… those gut feelings that I once felt with my ex-lover I had and I don't have.
If i could turn back time….

Oh yes, my ex-lover's last words at the time were: "I say goodbye to you and as soon as you are free you can contact me."